It's Over When It's Over Ain't It, Baby, Ain't It? Rips You Like a Dagger Can't It, Baby, Can't It?

Hey all!

So we have arrived at the more-bitter-than-sweet conclusion of my time in Spain, which means I am currently crying all over my keyboard as I type this. (That might not be entirely accurate because I have no heart. And I haven't had to say good-byes yet.) Either way, feelings are still trying to leak out of my Three Sizes Too Small heart. Ugh.

This week started off on a stressful note because finals are the most terrible invention ever. To be fair, they were probable easier than ones I would've taken back at the U on account of math can be a jerk. So Monday through Wednesday was spent preparing for tests, presentations and papers which created an un-fun beginning. (If we are being honest, the cloud of nostalgia hovering over Toledo right now has created a fairly un-fun atmosphere in general. But it's still better than finals.)

When we finally finished with tests on Wednesday afternoon, it became clear we needed to celebrate the end of tests and forget about the end of the trip. So obviously it was time to head over to Dragos. I can't explain how much I'm going to miss being able to head over after class and just relax there because there will never be another Dragos. That's our bar.

I need to stop with the mush. We stayed at Dragos for quite some time and then went to the discoteca, La Nuit, to get our dance on. I will also miss this club but maybe that's because I never really went clubbing back home. We were there for all hours of the night (Like some people shut it down at 5am. I was only there til 3:30am so Iwouldn't be dead on Thursday.) We all went crazy every time we heard an American song, and it's going to be weird to be surrounded by that kind of music when I get home. Reverse culture shock is going to be weird, methinks.

We all ended up sleeping in on Thursday morning due to our late night. Later, though, we tried to take in as much of the city as we could. I feel like I'm finally taking pictures of things I see everyday but just never got around to photographing. The weather here hasn't been cold, but it's been dismal and cloudy, as though Spain is sad to see us go. Guys, why do I have so many feelings just walking around? This is unacceptable.

Thursday night, we decided to do a repeat of our bonfire. Unfortunately, it appeared like it might rain so we had to decide if going up there was worth it to walk up the mountain. In the end, we headed down to a spot on the river that I hadn't known existed previously. It was almost pitch black when we got there, so we all formed a circle and used our cellphones to see. We ended up just hanging out (and had a brief chant of "Who hates Iowa? We hate Iowa!" Stay classy, Minnesota.) for a while down there until it was time to visit Dragos again. It was extremely beautiful down there and I came back and took pictures in the day because memories and suchlike. I didn't end up staying at Dragos that long, because I felt pretty tired and most of our fellow Americans stayed down by the river longer than us. After one drink, I called it a night and made the one minute walk back home.

All of Friday, I kept feeling like it was Saturday because apparently time feels like working differently this week. Like yesterday seems forever ago and finals seem super forever ago. And tomorrow seems far too close. I'm afraid the world is not a wish-granting factory. So yesterday involved a lot of self-pity because the End Is Nigh and doom and gloom are in our hearts. Okay, so clearly I'm exaggerating. Friday involved more wandering because, despite the cloudy weather, I want to be outside in the city as much as possible. I began thinking about pack as well (I don't believe in doing things until I feel the extreme stress and when I can get over The Sad of the situation.) Friday night began our Last Hurrah because we can't go out tonight; our bus to the airport leaves at 6am tomorrow morning. So we started out the night at (you guessed it!) Dragos. We ended up there almost until 2am because 1) Rain and 2) Feelings of nostalgia. I am almost certain this entire post will feature the sentence, "And then we were, once again, sad because we have to leave." It was incredibly fun to have all the Fund kids together for one last night. We went to La Nuit to dance it up until the wee hours of the night.

Today we got our grades (Good ones!) and we have a closing ceremony/dinner thing tonight. I'll probably add some stuff about that later. Now is later: We did have a magical celebration tonight! We all met in the auditorium to get our names called and receive our diplomas from the course. The whole time I was nervous, because we do the "dos besos" (air kisses) to whoever hands us our sheet and this always makes me a little anxious. fear not, for my execution was flawless. After, we had dinner which was more of random tapas instead of our usual dinner. Also, desert was great.

Unfortunately, today was also filled with packing because I've been putting it off. There is nothing more depressing than seeing my suitcase being filled up. I wandered around the city some more to get a last glimpse at the love of my life. Because it will be hard to find a city that compares.

I don't want to leave here.

And even though that's true, I've realized that leaving seems kind of pure, you know? Like it definitely leaves me aching inside, but that's probably better than if it didn't. Because if it hurts, it meant something and it was worth it even if I have to feel a little emotional pain. There are still other adventures to come, but I stayed long enough for it to matter.

I'm headed to Greece tomorrow (!!!) and I have a few announcements on my future blogging. I'll be changing cities every two to three days, so my blogging will probably be a little more sporadic. When I have access to wifi and time, I'll keep all of you updated, but it will likely be a little bit trickier. So keep a weather eye on the horizon for posts.

Athens tomorrow!

Sol, Spain, Sangria & S'mores

Hey guys!

Repping all my Boston gear.

There have been some rather drastic ups and downs for this week due to A) Current events B) The weather and C) The beginning of finals.To begin with the current events side of things, I'm sure you've all heard about the Boston Marathon bombings; however, the effect seems different when you aren't in your own country. I feel disconnected with everything that happened, and it's incredibly strange to deal with such tragedy when you are away from home and have to rely on the internet (it's a little sketchy here) to keep you updated. It was tense waiting to see the outcome of everything, and I don't think I really describe my disorientation and shock over the bombings. I'm aware that, had I been in Minnesota, I couldn't have helped any more than when I am here, but I felt far more helpless not even being in America. Overall, I am grateful to the city of Boston for hanging tough in these trying times and proving the strength of humanity in the face of such hatred (I am wearing my Green Monstah Red Sox shirt while writing this. Sorry I couldn't be serious in the picture, that's just my blogging face. Also, go Twins!)  

While events unfolded in Boston, the weather here has been absolutely fantastic. This almost adds to my struggle to come to terms with the destruction back home (home being 'Murica in general) because how can such beauty exist in the same place as that much hate? No answers to that question, I guess. On a less world-wide scale, this week has featured an extreme internal battle: homework and studying versus the absolutely fantastic weather. I fear for my grades.

I was Skyping with the fam last Sunday, so I realize rubbing in the weather situation is not particularly nice. It seems my Minnesota people have had some winter storm watches, right? And a little bit of snow? Ah the joys of the Midwest. In case you were wondering, I have a tan line and it's been between 70 and 85 degrees for most of the week. No big deal.

This means I've been outside for the entire week when I'm not in class.We have a plaza outside the Fund with benches, so I've been reading and studying out there whenever I get a chance because I only have one week left in Spain. The Spaniards don't necessarily share the Minnesotans and Wisconsinites love for the heat: they stared at any of us wearing summery clothes and they still had on jackets, and some of them even had gloves. I don't know how they physically survived. (There is no "ph" in Spanish an I almost put an "f" instead. Just thought you all should know...) When we weren't sitting out on the benches or enjoying other parts of Toledo, we were drinking Sangria at Dragos (the bar that is 30 seconds from the Fund) after class to relax in the afternoon.

I also had my first final on Thursday, which went well (?). Maybe. We are connected to a music school, so I apparently get a soundtrack to finals week because they were definitely making a racket during my test. So it goes. To celebrate being done with our first final, about thirty of us headed to Dragos just to hang out for the rest of the afternoon. This was extremely fun and one of our professors even joined us in  our Tapas-and-Sangria hangout. In reality, I don't think a person gets many perfect times in their life, but this was one of them. I don't mean a good or great time. I mean absolutely perfect. Yeah, that's how fantastic it was.

Friday was basically just more hanging out and studying during the day because finals. I have a paper and presentation due tomorrow (We won't talk about how far I've gotten on them. That idea scares us.) so I actually-sort-of tried to be productive. Results were mixed. We had all decided earlier in the week to have a bonfire Friday night, so I was looking forward to that all day. We planned to leave at nine, before it got completely dark out because we were climbing the mountain (I swear it's a mountain. Big hill isn't accurate!) to where we planned on making our fire. We didn't exactly leave on time, so it was pretty dark when we made it to the other side of the river.

Life Lesson #86: Do not climb small mountains in the dark. Do not wear flip-flops while climbing small mountains in the dark.

That was up there in Dumbest Things I've Done In Spain. But we did eventually make it and the view was literally breath-taking. Mostly on account of the climb, but the view was actually spectacular. We were the first group that got up there and none of us brought a lighter. Le sigh. Eventually the other groups straggled up, and they brought provisions to make a fire possible. Unfortunately for us, fires fall under the Super Illegal activities here on account of the dry countryside. Even so, we decided to make it and hope there weren't any headlines the next day saying: American Students Burn Down Medieval City Due To Stupidity. We didn't need to worry though because our fire struggled to survive. All of the guys were trying to prove their manliness or what have you because they were obsessed with the keeping the fire going. Most of us got to roast a S'more though, before it died completely so it ended up working out alright. It was super windy up on the mountain, so when we got cold we went back to Toledo to sleep and prepare for the next day.

Saturday started off much the same as Friday, with a lot of studying and trying to accomplish things in spite of the beautiful, weather-y distraction. Mostly, I am terrible at accomplishing school things even when I give myself a deadline. So I really didn't get that much done. Saturday night was a celebration though because it was Emma's 21st birthday this weekend! Free champagne and starting the night out at Dragos because that's where it's at. I don't think the bar scene in the states is going to be anywhere as good as it is here. I got tired quite early because of um, obviously working hard the entire day, so I headed in earlyish. I had hopes of actually getting things done today, but it's been difficult. Ugh. At best, this was wishful thinking.

I pretended to do homework today, so now I have quite a bit to go tonight. I really need to work on my time management skills and not do Other Spain Things.

On a concluding note, I have realized J.K. Rowling stole my life story for Harry Potter. Now, it might seem like a lot to compare myself to the Boy Who Lived, but it's true. (If you haven't read/watched Harry Potter, just ignore this paragraph.) Like Harry, I have to destroy the horcruxes in my life to save the world. I mean, my horcruxes are finals, but it's almost the same as parts of Voldemort's soul. Anyway, the closer I get to having them destroyed the happier I can be, right? Wrong! Harry needs to sacrifice himself for the good of humanity by destroying the last horcruxes and when I destroy mine I uh...won't be in Spain anymore. This is true sacrifice. No finals = No Spain.

Basically, I'm Harry Potter. 

One week left in Spain then off to Greece!